Suddenly

I've been soaked up into theatre.

I went and watched "Suddenly, Last Summer" which was written by Tennessee Williams

two of my friends were into.

I swear I was so caught in the mood of this dramatic play.

I felt a whole lot of emotions

it was simply amazing.

I also enjoyed seeing "Hairspray" On its tour across Canada

and that was pretty awesome

its was fun to see this Musical.

All & All 

I'm enjoying theatre more and more.

Life is about Beautiful Art

and Wonderful Plays

....

 

I love my Best friend

I can't wait to see her,

I miss being able to hang out with her all the time.

Our inside jokes,

playing mario party.

Cuddling and taking pictures.

Funny joke....

She tells this guy that I plan on Visiting

and she plans on hooking us up.

She says lets check him out on facebook

and he says he already has

and thinks I'm Cute.

YES!

I know that even though we live 

on different sides

of this Large Country 

we will be there for each other no matter what.

Tell each other everything & Anything

Calgary Loves Halifax

....

looking at pictures 

makes me want to go back to europe

for a longer time.

Windows

He Laughed.

He Joked.

I simply listened to each word

that came from his mouth.

He looked at me 

with a different look,

this look made me think,

Question

Longing to see where the answer lays.

I hide my boyish crush

behind my window shaped eyes

hopping maybe he will peak in

the curtains are open.

...

The nights come early

snow spiting from the sky

flying all around

Cold yet peaceful

walking step by step

realizing that life has many wonders.

There are many things to see.

...

Questions of life

Questions of death

why is it I feel the way i do?

why do i imagine death, embrace it even.

it's on the quest for an escape

nothing gives me pleasure 

nothing gives me hope

I fake everything

I do nothing.

I want nothing.

I see nothing.

there is nothing.

I AM NOTHING.

I try to remember how I felt when I was

when I was

 I was

 was

but all is see is nothing.

nothing.

In this pit of black

this dark empty area

storms of black

storms of rage

storms of sorrow 

Acid Rain hitting my body

I'm trapped in this body

it's not a body

it's a cage

I am Caged

I am a Beast

I shouldn't exist 

I shouldn't be

I am Nothing.

I feel no emotion 

I'm a brick wall being hit with paint

paint that is the world

which is filled with people

people

people

people

I am nothing.

I see things

I listen

I breath

but still

I am nothing.

I can't cry

can't cry

cry

there are no tears

I'm all dried up

All there is

is pain

Pain of life

Pain of dreams

Pain of pure joy

I am nothing.

I can't handle being around people

the only things that keep me going

Grandma

Mom

Baby Brother

Kitty

but still 

I AM NOTHING!

H-Ween

He got high, he got high, he got high.

he drank a little, he talked a lot.

His smile is so young and so cute.

his eyes sparkle with that sweetness

where you know something is there.

He makes me smile.

Yet only time will tell if anything happens....

I guess we will see

but heres hoping.